On Desparation

Desperation is one of those words that usually comes waltzing into the room carrying a suitcase full of bad connotations. I am sure we all have said, or heard someone in our life say the following about a person:

“well, they are just SO desperate for ___

Replace that blank space with a spouse/relationship, money/work, plans/events/ or activities. You name it. But one thing I realized this past week is that desperation and danger have a very close correlation, and a very negative relationship when they are together. When someone is desperate for a relationship or person, they will usually be willing to settle or put themselves in a relationship or position that is not healthy- causing danger to themselves emotionally or physically. In the case of someone being desperate for money, this could cause them to become a workaholic and damage relationships with family members due to them misusing their time. And so on.

The past month of my life has been very odd to say the least. It contained a lot of stress, anxiety, depressive moods, and change…. There was also a lot of provision, grace, and blessings. It was not all bad by any means! However,there were many of days where I felt completely empty and weak. I understand and know that God allows us to get to those points to allow us the opportunity to rely only on Him. I realized more each day, the necessity of being desperate for The Lord. Every moment.. of every day. When we are not desperate for Him, we allow for temptation and struggle to come into our lives and make themselves comfortable. Every moment God chooses to give us breath is a moment we need to be relying on Him.

The Lord is my rock and my fortress and my deliverer, My God, my rock, in whom I take refuge; My shield and the horn of my salvation, my stronghold” - Psalm 18.2

When we are desperate for the wrong things, we put ourselves in great danger. When we are desperate for the right thing, we are shielded from danger.

There is a strong sense of danger when we give take our eyes off of Jesus for even a second, and let something or someone else be the focus of our heart. Usually this will lead us to a place of destitute or irritation… Because we are becoming idol worshipers without realizing it. Crazy how fast that can happen, huh? When we lock our eyes on Him, you know what happens? He will give you peace and joy in the midst of difficult circumstances….So how do we become reliant upon Him? Read the Bible. Speak to your creator that waits patiently for you with a listening ear and heart. Surround yourself with other Followers who are walking in obedience.

Please ask yourself… Who and what am I desperate for? If you have trouble answering this question, look at where your priorities are. When you are focused on the Lord, and you are reliant upon Him…

Let anyone who thinks that he stands take heed lest he fall.” - 1 Corinthians 10.12

My prayer for each of us is that every morning, we would wake desiring to be desperate to grow closer and closer to Jesus until He takes us home to be with Him.

Let me hear in the morning of your steadfast love, for in you I trust. Make me know the way I should go, for to you I lift up my soul. Deliver me from my enemies, O Lord! I have fled to you for refuge. Teach me to do your will, for you are my God! Let your good Spirit lead me on level ground!" - Psalm 143.8-9

Ellie Stephan